I'm back and better than ever.  Thanks Ian for makin my site look cool.

P.S. Ian......you are ssoooo sexy!

OMG THIS IS BIG!!!

Oh wow where to start.  Ok so I wanted to tell Alex how I felt about him.  Yah right like that was gonna happen!  I was talkin to Maddness (check out her xanga! She should be in my comments!) about how I would to tell him.  She like planned the whole thing out for me when I said Why don't you just do it for me!   She was like: NO.  I was like yes I'm gonna call him and tell him to go online and tell him that your SN is my new one!!!  She slipped in a NO before I went offline to call Alex.  I gave Alex "my new SN" and waited.  I was thinking "No way will she do this".  And when I didn't get a call from Alex asking me why I gave him her sn, I got worried.  All of the thoughts going through my mind were all along the lines of "OMG she must have told him and he hates me!". 

About an hour later (or what felt like and hour???) Alex showed up at my doorstep.  He was acting like nothing had happened.  So he came in.  I WAS FREAKING HYPERVENTILATING!!!  I was thinking "what happened?" but I was sure as hell not gonna ask him! 

So we talked for a while, then we watched a movie.  I was sitting there, not paying attention to the movie, thinking about lots of horrific possibilities.  I had my back turned from him through all of this so he wouldn't see my face. 

So here I was sweating like a pig, practicly peein my pants from worry, and wasn't even able to enjoy the movie!!  All of a sudden I see Alex walking towards me...he sits on my lap...then...

he kissed me.

I have a headache.

I took the day off from school today because my STUPID dog decided to EAT, not chew, EAT one of my mangas bookmark and all.  So I stayed home to make sure he was ok because it was too early to go to the vet and he was acting like somthing was wrong.  Stupid dog, even if I had wanted to go to school I wouldn't have to be able to because I was balling so hard.  Its wierd how I get stupid when I'm sad.  I was so sure that he was going to die  for some reason.  So I stayed home. 

It was about 12:00 when I realized I had to go to school because I had a Junior Achivement meeting afterschool that I couldn't miss without being kicked out of the program.  So, I walked to school at about 2:15 and got there around 2:40, waited for about 10 minutes for the bell to ring then went to the meeting.  The meeting was good as usual.  When Laguna Creek High's best and brightest are assembled in one place it doesn't get boring. 

ALEX.......*sighs*